CONRAD
I LOVE BEEF, and subtly, gabe too<3 hehehe

SONG OF THE DAY:
All Time Low- Break Out, Break Out (ACOUSTIC)

Luck loves me not tonight, I'm running out...
This four leaf clover's all but useless now.
I've got four wheels that say I'm not alone tonight,
I'm always looking for a joy ride through the,
brightest part of this town.

Break out, break out,
as we escape through the windows,
head for the car, and never look back, singing-singing,
"Break out, break out,
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

Put up or shut up, we're not wasting time again,
The credits are rolling and we're getting lost again,
In parking lots, to serenading sirens,
as the blue lights bathed our smiles...
Break out, break out,
as we escape through the windows,
head for the car, and never look back, singing-singing,
"Break out, break out,
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

Lets take a moment to reflect,
on the past few years of my life,
I haven't worked myself away,
to stay inside.
This is the time to let us...

Break out, break out,
as we escape through the windows,
head for the car, and never look back, singing-singing,
"Break out, break out,
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

1:30 AM Someone kill me. Just kill me. Anything is better than this. Anything is better. Than hurting you.


12:03 AM So I had something bad happen to my eyes last Thursday due to wearing my contacts for too long. Oxygen deprivation or something like that. In any case, I CAN'T WEAR MY CONTACTS FOR TWO WEEKS which is a nightmare for a vain pot like me. Oh well. I'm just glad nothing serious happened to my eyes. Just gotta take these eye drops and an annoying eye ointment (which feels really weird by the way) every day.

School sucks, gotta study hard now.


11:16 AM



3:38 PM I feel like I can't breathe the moment I start studying.

Life's always greener on the other side so I've just got to put some really amazing green lens-ed sunglasses on when I go to school. I miss how easy I'd take everything, maybe a bit too easy, cuz now I spaz when I put a textbook in front of me.

Had a great talk quite a number of days ago, last Thursday to be exact, after my Stats paper with Celene in the midst of watching Las Vegas, (Molly Sims is freakin amazing by the way, Josh Duhamel should totally dump Fergie) and I have to admit that she's totally right, as usual.

My mindset is totally wrong, time to start bucking up. Alone. Cuz my group members and I don't keep contact so all PBL's are pretty much owned by our uselessness combined haha.

Got 22/60 for my second Stats test and I've passed overall so far, but I'mma go for the re-test.

So many PBL's to do, so little time, so little skill. I don't even have the slightest idea of what I'm supposed to do. ARGH.

Why the complexity of Poly..

Oh well, on the brighter side of poly life, there's Celene my pretty girl :D Makes everything okay! :)

Microeconomics Final Paper -70% (HOLY MOTHER SHIT HOLE)
Cost Managerial Accounting - The Bane of ALL evil, I hate bloody accounting stuff.
Business Stats - I think I'm just pretty bad at it.
Financial Management - If I start practicing I should be able to survive.
Electronic Business Applications - GODDAMN PBLs.
Business Communication - What a waste of my time, yet so important. ARGH.


2:14 PM I'm 59.1 kg :(

My body fat has risen from 5.5% to 8.4% :(

How I wish it were the other way around..

I need to weigh 65kg :D

I want to have almost no fat on my stomach.. my lower abs are quite a disappointment these days..

OOH LOOK. It's a blog post.

Anyway,

BASKETBALL GAME ON SATURDAY 18TH JULY FROM 1300 TO 1800!!

Event: Basketball Game
Venue: Rifle Range Basketball Court (Near Austin's House)
Time: 1300 to 1800

Drinks provided and dinner at Austin's place (or at least he needs to confirm first)

Everyone and anyone is welcome at any time. DO COME!!


12:22 AM I left my wallet in a cab. Managed to get the exact cab driver thanks to the wonders of Rafflesia Guard House regulation of taking down all cab numbers, time in and out, what tower, etc etc. However, no wallet. (LIES!!)

So I made a police report.

Anyway, I lost.. in order of Importance

1. Cute kindergarten picture of Celene which she doesn't have any more of :(
2. AC Badge (I've never not had it with me since sec3..)
3. Rebe's present to me on my 16th birthday that is, the pictures taken.
4. IC
5. EZLINK
6. Schoolcard
7. GNC card
8. Subway card (it had 12 stamps!!!!)
9. I can't get over the lost photo and badge..
10. 5FREAKIN9 bucks.

What a bad day.


12:29 AM The source of my confidence is gone.

Out goes the buff daddy, in comes the skinny.

:(

Oh well I have till the end of the year then Celene's gonna break up with me if I don't have my body back..

:D I love that girl!


1:07 AM I think I'm lacking the ambition I once had.
The fire I possessed, extinguished, if not partially.
The yearning I had, is but diminished it's so sad.
That which I craved, is ever more a distant reality.

Something's missing. Somehow I just don't feel as motivated to gym anymore? It's odd. I swear this would've been something that I would've loved forever and ever and ever and 4evaxxxxZx.

I guess not.

GODDAMMIT. Somehow it'll come back.

I'm armed with protein powder and I've got fat to burn, muscle to build.

I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. I hate Business Studies, I don't know if I can get into University much less afford it. I want to choose an occupational route that would be result in me being able to raise a family with a comfortable life and a dog. Yet, what I want doesn't sound good enough. What sounds good, somehow seems unattainable.

PLUS PLUS, this 12am curfew thing is beyond messed up. I feel so cooped up, so defeated by the likes of the maternal totalitarian regime, it stinks more than my diarrhea did just now. What a jail bird I am :( I'm gonna go crazy soon..

okay enough mulling.


12:32 AM Retainers sugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg but I least I don't have to wear them during the day.

I hate my body, I need a hardcore training life but I've been saying that for ages now.


12:21 AM Running today on campus was pretty fun, considering I had not run in months. Did not die as badly as I expected myself to and I must admit, I'm rather proud of myself for still being able to run! HAHA. My arch and lower calf ache like hell now though, horrible kind of pain. Stupid semi flat footedness out to ruin my life.

I hate school.


2:29 PM To love is to find pleasure in the happiness of the person loved :)


12:03 AM Today I saw two horny tree lizards doing nature's wonder on a step in school at block 72. On closer inspection, they fled. RATS! I thought. Guess that's the end of THAT show! BUT NOOOO, to my piqued interest, amusement, and sheer disgust, in the midst of running away the male slid (or at least I think that can describe their movement) on top of the female and started nature's-wondering away! I could not stop laughing. The animal world and their natural survival instinct to reproduce is so disgusting because it makes them so god damn horny they'd still do it when a possible predator (me) might step on them or something. (not that I would've) Well I guess it goes to show the animal kingdom is a horny kingdom, and so are elephant seals and their lust for virgins.

Celene and Adelyn backed away and laughed and laughed and laughed while I went to inspect while students across the road pointed and laughed and had their mouths agape.

WOW WEE WHAT A SIGHT TO SEE!

Okay, that's my update.


10:38 AM WASHINGTON - SOFT drink makers should invent and market a new category of semi-sweet beverages that will help wean Americans off their reliance on sugary drinks, nutrition experts said on Monday.

They proposed a new class of reduced-calorie beverages with no more than 1 gram of sugar per ounce, which with about 50 calories is about 70 per cent less sugar than a typical soft drink contains. They said such drinks should also be free of artificial sweeteners such as aspartame and saccharine.

'We need to retrain American tastes away from super-sweet drinks,' Lilian Cheung of the Harvard School of Public Health said in a statement.

'If we can shift the present American norm back to a lower expectation of sweetness, people will adjust their palates, particularly the younger population.' The American Beverage Association, which represents soft drink makers, was not immediately available for comment.

The researchers cited evidence that sugary drinks are an important contributor to the epidemic of obesity and type 2 diabetes in the United States, where more than two-thirds of the population is overweight or obese.

'The scientific evidence is now clear; soda and other sugar-sweetened beverages are important contributors to obesity in children and adults,' said Walter Willett, chairman of Harvard's Department of Nutrition.

'Healthier beverage options would allow individuals to make better choices.' The group said four out of five children and two out of three adults drink sugar-sweetened beverages on any average day. A 20-ounce (590 ml) bottle of soda contains nearly 17 teaspoons (255 ml) of sugar and 250 calories (1.05 kj) and they said the Food and Drug Administration should be empowered to require more detailed labeling.

In a study of 90,000 women published in the April issue of the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition, the Harvard team reported that women who drank more than two servings of sugary beverages each day had a nearly 40 per cent higher risk of heart disease than women who rarely drank such drinks.

Food and beverage makers blame a lack of exercise and say people can choose to responsibly eat snack foods. -- REUTERS

3:47 PM I HAVE DECIDED THAT I'M NO LONGER HIDING FROM THE TRUTH, I love Hannah Montana! I know, it's a joke right? BUT NO, IT'S NOT. I'm so embarrassed of it but totally embracing it.

I can't forget the tingling feeling she gives me whenever she speaks, and guess what! A FEW MORE MINUTES TO HANNAH MONTANA!!!!! I can't wait.

Yes I'm a fool, say what you will. But bare in mind people, you're a fool when you're in love.

HANNAH MONTANA!!! <3<3<3<3<3

Happy 6th Months Celene!!<3
(Yes, only one heart for you and 5 for Hannah!)


P.S. Look at my darling angel! Isn't she lovely!! Omg, the wait is killing me.

2:58 AM Sometimes,

I wonder REALLY REAAAALLY hard, why I can't compare.

AND THEN!

I wonder REALLY REAAAALLY hard, what the hell I'm comparing to.

Which leads me to the conclusion.. after,

I wonder REALLY REAAAALLY hard, that I'm not really comparing myself to anything or anyone but I'm just so pathetically disgustingly incapable of being happy with myself.

Thus,

I wonder REALLY REAAAALLY hard, when I'll ever find content in the things I am capable of.

Because right now?

I wonder REALLY REAAAALLY hard, what the hell my minuscule existence represents and why I'm so small, useless.. and lousy, compared to whatever it is my subconscious compares myself to.

GOD! I need money to shop and erase such feelings of inferiority.

Guess my inferiority complex is acting up again. No reason why, no one is to blame. I just suck that way.

An inferiority complex, in the fields of psychology and psychoanalysis, is a feeling that one is inferior to others in some way. Such feelings can arise from an imagined or actual inferiority in the afflicted person. It is often subconscious, and is thought to drive afflicted individuals to overcompensate, resulting either in spectacular achievement or extreme, or both. Unlike a normal feeling of inferiority, which can act as an incentive for achievement, an inferiority complex is an advanced state of discouragement, often resulting in a retreat from difficulties.

Wonder where the spectacular achievement went.

Emo moods aside,




I WANT A BORDER COLLIE I WANT A BORDER COLLIE I WANT A BORDER COLLIE NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW and I quote Celene, x1023456789!!!


1:53 AM I'm gonna be working at SWIRL once again.. Currently incredibly long hours on Monday, Friday and Sunday. Can't possibly say that I'm happy, yet I can't say that I'm sad. I can, however, say, that I will be bored of my mind for these few days and I'm gonna miss my pretty :(

Might think about a night job too at hard rock cafe too though I'm just thinking about it.

Always envied beaches overseas. Like, how you can walk out to see for ages and ages and not feel this shitty PLUNK because you sink down as the floor suddenly deepens. Sad for Singapore, we have land reclamation. Nice for abroaders, their beaches are often so awesome, my vocabulary is limited to awesome.

Now I wanna go to the beach, play frisbee, and learn touch rugby.


4:18 PM Ahh.. I really want to be a pretty princess in pinkkkk with a tiara and all. I can't believe my mom never put me in one of those pretty in pink dresses. Some childhood.. Sigh, I would have looked so princessly pretty in pink:(



Right?

8:52 PM THE WORST IS OVER!!!!

Now I've just gotta focus on IT Business throughout tonight.. it's annoying how quickly holiday moods set in.
Gotta pass ITB toooooo.


4:13 PM Why, oh why, oh WHYYYY did I know want to become a personal trainer earlier!!?!?

Now I'm suffering with stupid POA.

Seriously pissing me off because I'm not even terrible at it, I just can't do it.

If only I can do Physiotherapy or something.


11:00 PM Hi everyone!
Celene here. The post below's totally not true. Gerald and I wrote it at first to trick all of you guys who reads his blog, but in the end, we decided to just trick Addie! So it really totally isn't true. I'll like to comfirm and reassure you guys that Conrad is not gay, just.. I quote, very "open to his feminine side" and he didn't do the slightest bit to hurt me. Actually, he was totally in it! Hahah. I'm so sorry if there was a misunderstanding.

Gabriel, I'm so sorry for using your name. It was just.. Well.. Very realistic.

Ps, I love you ugly boy!

-Celene